Close your eyes. Count to ten. Then imagine a beautiful ancient castle (tastefully remodeled to include central heating, kick-ass wi-fi and WordPress.com ready laptops everywhere). Now walk down the endless main hall, a hall filled with amazing rooms of wonder. Go into the 2nd room on the right. What’s inside?
My mom waiting for me sitting there reading by her balcony with an ocean view with the glass doors open to feel the ocean spray and smell the ocean breeze and to gather all the warmth from the summer air.
She is in this room to tell me everything will be alright, that everything I am doing is for the right reasons and I am in the right place, right where God wants me to be in my life. She says that she misses me and wishes time didn’t go so fast when she was on this earth. She also reminds me to tell people you care about them every time you get the chance and not to worry about what other people think of you. They have their own issues and failed dreams in their life. They might be jealous of you in yours. Also, she tells me not to worry about Alex and about the things that are happening now, she is just going through growing pains and it is time for her to move to the next step in her life. She will be ok and will be a wonder to others around her.
Tears fill me as she speaks to me as I don’t live a day without missing my mother’s voice or advice. She tells me she is glad I am happy now and to cherish every moment and to not let anyone steal that away for a moment.
I don’t know where this came from, I must have been thinking about my mom tonight when I saw the blog post idea. I just closed my eyes and went to the castle and started writing, I didn’t know what was going to be there.
RIP mom, I love you, can’t wait to see you again.