I need to chill and realize I can’t change things that happen sometimes. I need to realize that there are things I can’t change. If I can’t change it, sometimes, I need to accept it. I can’t run away from it. If I fight it, I will just make it worse. I want it to be better, I need to move on, keep focused on the present and know there is a future. I need to try to focus on the positive. What is the alternative? Be miserable. I need to try to work as a team, to function with who we have to work with instead of trying to make the situation worse. I will miss how it was but when things can not be the same and can’t go back I need to find a way to deal with it. They are worried about me and frankly so am I. I want to be able to control the situation especially since I know it will hurt others. But how do you deal with it when you are forced to?
May 23, 2011